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Well, the meat cravings have passed. I messed up and had cheese and sour cream on a taco salad last night. And the fact that I ate it at 10:30 pm doesn't help a whole lot either. But it's a journey right? It's going to take time to break 36 years of bad habits and what I always thought to be normal! I feel tons better now so that's really encouraging. I believe I will actually try to start exercising this week. THis I am taking very slow, I should have been doing a little more than occasional yoga posses and stretches this whole time but I didn't want to get into that until I knew for sure I was stronger. I have my off days for sure, so I will have to work around that but like I said I will figure this out. I am not going to be some middle age person with a cane, overweight barely able to carry myself around on a zillion meds that really won't help! I've made this commitment to myself and my family and I plan to see it through.

I'm not being met with alot of resistance yet. Because I do have my oldest daughter to convide in my struggles. She sometimes is one of those wholier than though vegetarians though and it gets frustrating trying to councel her not to act that way it's very off putting and we are all only human! She's very cut and dry about most things so it kinda comes off in a way that isn't always constructive. She's improoving though. I just wish she could meet someone who isn't a whacked out free love hippy to share her experiences with. She really doesn't have anyone in a similar situation but me. She is 3 years into this and newly vegan so it's pretty much old hat for her. She of course is learning all the new stuff vegan associated. But other than that she's adjusted very well. She's not shunned for her decisions by her peers but they aren't exactly supportive either. I have confidence she is strong enought to survive. She is after all my daughter :)

One thing I'm horrible about is drinking enough water. This and the fact that I don't exercise enough could be why I'm not miraculously loosing weight like crazy! I am trying to be concience about it and make myself drink some water, but I know it's not nearly enough. Another struggle I seen to be having is getting enough fruits in. I love strawberries and pretty much all fruits but it just wasn't something I ate before so training myself to reach for the apple instead of the granola bar is a little harder than I thought. If i don't have something easy to eat I tend to not eat. Which isn't good I know. Ive been eating at least a orange or banana a day and almost everyday for a week I've started my day with a strawberry smoothie with some spinache it's a easy way to incorporate some greens and a bit of protein while I still get a couple fruit servings in too.

Like I said this is a journey. I didn't become unhealthy over night and I can't cure it or break my habits over night either. One baby step at a time. It's what working for me. Well time to get up off my lazy butt and do something constructive.

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